Help! I don’t want to leave this world without having meaning in my soul…

Dear Christina,

Not long ago, I saw one of your videos talking about the inner child. I started talking and praying to my inner child to try to heal him and to heal me. I know a lot of people have had bad experiences and some way worse than me, but what concerns me is that there’s so much unusual pain of not knowing what real love is. I think I do, but it seems it’s not in my cards in life. I’m just trying to learn to love myself and I spend a lot of time to myself especially during Covid. I’m confused with life sometimes. I have trust issues — maybe I set my standards too high — but I feel low. I know my heart is good but I’m cautious with sharing it unless I feel the same wave links inline with each other. There are a lot of things I need to address and heal if it’s possible. I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me but every now and then I feel maybe there’s hope and I don’t want to leave this world not having meaning in my soul.

-Bill

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Dear Bill,

Thank you so much for writing in. Your submission inspired me to record you a video telling you just how much you matter and just how much your presence in this world matters.

So often in life we get beat down by events, circumstances, and the pain associated with life not happening the way we want it to. And so often the pain, disappointment, and fear leave us feeling like we don’t matter and like our lives don’t matter in this world.

When I read your words, my heart choked. Because you matter. In fact, you matter more than you may ever know and I wanted to take this opportunity to tell you just how much.

I also wanted to give you one of my wacky (yet powerful) energy tools that I use daily to help me clear away junky thoughts, other people’s thoughts and emotions, and energies that no longer serve me to hold onto. I know that when you watch the video, the tool may seem a little “out of this world” — haha — and that’s ok. If you use it regularly, I promise it will help you to not feel so much pain all the time and it will help you to not feel so low all the time. And equally as important, the tool shows you how to take in more light.

One of the things that so few people realize is that we truly have the power to release thoughts and feelings that aren’t ours, don’t feel good, and no longer serve us. And we have the power to take in more of the thoughts, feelings, and experiences we want to have. The tool I give you in the video is a good first step in starting to clear away some of the junk — especially when bad thoughts (or stinking thinking) come out of nowhere. I usually tell people that when the bad thoughts come out of nowhere, they’re likely not even your thoughts and you can use this tool to release them — pronto!

Now, I know that in this video response, I didn’t directly address some of what you wrote in your submission, but what I felt was so much more important to share with you was this unbelievable amount of love and gratitude that I have for you — real love — love borne of the spirit, and real gratitude for you just being you and doing as you do. I hope you can feel it.

One thing I’ve learned is that once we can feel something for the first time, we get “attuned” to it and then we can call it in whenever we want. May you feel the pure love and trust that your heart is not just “good” as you wrote in your submission . . . it’s perfect. The other stuff (pain, fear, trust issues, etc) sits on top of the pure, beautiful heart you already have. Spend more time visualizing and imagining the perfect, pure, loving heart you already have and you’ll draw into your life people and experiences that match and mirror your beautiful heart, including people who can see your beautiful heart and honor it as well.

And remember, where our thoughts go, energy flows. And where there is light, there cannot also be darkness. Stay focused only on what you want to experience and reject all thoughts that are in opposition to what you want. There is a quote by one of my mentors that says “Successful people think only about what they want, and they want what they think”, in other words, they refuse to take in thoughts that are in opposition to their good.

Also, keep coming back to this website and watching the videos. If you haven’t signed up to get our newsletter, do so here so that I can send inspirational stuff to your email inbox directly. We all know that sometimes it gets hard to stay in a positive place, especially with all the negativity going on in the world, so do your best to stay connected to people who inspire you and people who are doing inspiring things (even if it’s just staying connected to these people and their actions via YouTube videos, social media, websites, books, classes/courses, etc.) As you do so, you will naturally begin to see yourself becoming more inspired as well. It’s a beautiful thing.

And, Bill, thank you for trusting me with your heart, your vulnerability, and your soul. I am so grateful to know that you exist in the world.

Here’s your video:

[Dear Reader: after Bill watched this video, he wrote a response. I’ve published it below, with his permission.]

With love and gratitude,

UPDATE: After Bill received his free coaching video, he provided the response below. With his permission, I’m sharing it:

Christina, I’m lost for words but I’m going to spew whatever comes out. Your video I had to watch twice, I wrote down your suggestions and I will apply to my daily life. Your video, your meaning, felt so real I started to cry even when I watched it the second time. I saved it so that I could watch it again. This is the first time I truly felt your message of who I am and we never met, that’s an astonishing feeling. I know when I was telling you about the news, isolation, and all that stuff I was in a dark place and simultaneously you showed up.

Your video, when I started to get emotional, it’s like spiritually you pulled my inner child out of my heart and held him and said you do matter! And you put him back with nothing but love. I’ve never experienced this before but all I can say is with my experience as of today the darkest hours are right before daylight and Christina you helped with that in a big way… you just don’t realize.

I guess our higher power puts people in our lives at the right moment. Sometimes we, or at least I, don’t realize it. I know it in my spirit, in my soul, I’m grateful for you being here and carrying the message of love, Christina. I’m so grateful for you! –Bill